Assalamualaikum !!

halOo2 di sana...

Selesai sudah program jom masuk kampung for kelas kesukarelawan aku ! yeeehaaaaaaaa....
Overall...aku letih sangat2, tapi aku happy sangat..n sedikit sedih juga.
Sedih?? happy?? all of this ade story nyer trsendiri.

I m sad..... beCoz :
- i worked alone instead of working in group. =__=
- I tengking my best friend, actually its not for her. Lets stOry kejap~ Tengah i jejalan, tetibe my febret lecturer datang toward me and said "safella, dorang watper kat sane? Pegi tanye dorang, nnti kalo dorang xde keja..pegi rewang ngan orang kampung" Well he said that.. ayt lebey kurang cam ni lah. Then i went there and asked, they said they were making a video for majlis penutup. Okes! accept, but still our lecturer seem not really happy. Then, tetibe aku trnampak a few people sitting relaxly kat tepi dewan. Instead of asking, tetibe jew aku TER keluar ayt yg kurang besh! Ioollss x sengaje k!! "Kalo ade sape2 kat sini yang kelas kesukarelawan, pegi tulun makcik2 kat dapor!! " N tetibe, my besh friend pown ade sekali. huhuhuuu... I x nampk uollss actually. tetibe berpaling ke blakang...Wah, terkezut giler arr! hahahaa... Really sorry.. Its all becoz i m tired, stress, hot, n becoz of pndangan lecturer towards our group. I m really2 sorry beb!
- I m sad becoz our group don't seem happy and always berpuak-puak~ well said kan kan kannn?! Honestly,this is the first in my history that i felt so sad because of this matter.. Why they did it?? Its not good for  us.. Perhap they don't know~ But, pengarah pown da bagitau kan.. They really don't care lah! I really sad because most of them treated orang kampung like that. I mean most of them x mix dengan villagers and suke2 jew wat hal sndiri.
- I really sad because one of our friend cannot accept their adopted mom! She really annoying me at first sight i saw her in class!!! she thought she really good, perfect, and cool.. NO she's NOT !!! Just because she is so kaya, perfect and comel...tak sepatutnya dia layan family angkat dia cam tu. Muka cantek, tapi hati busuk macam bangkai!! OMG rase annoying betoi lar~ N yg sedihnye, she samo nogori mcm den ni haaa... ank loaded lh kate kan..

AND....

I m happy becoz :
- i have them helping me!
- I have a lot of memories there...with my mom and abah. N mak long toO~ They are so kind and generous! absolutely happy being with them tau. If we're not making many activities, i m sure we can keep talking..talking n story telling with our family.
- I m happy becoz this is my first time, i can use that words.. MAK n ABAH~ Really happy to call uoollss using that words. Appreciate ur hospitality~ AWESOMe lah!! Its made me smile..sorang2....
- I m happy because we choose this kampung!! I LOVE that kampung~ Peace and nice...sorrounding lah.
- I m happy because i can conduct this program although i m just a setiausaha...a.k.a S/U...
- I m really happy because my mOm angkat baju i kat jemuran
- I m happy because i have new siblings...Mira, shairan, shamim and dak comel amelina~
- I m happy because this project is OVER! so i can rest in peace...n reducing my stress a little! But, still i love my NEW family.
- I m happy because i got new friends...BUT kawan lama x dilupakan~ thanks coz memahami cik kura...heheheeee JOKE makes me perfect!!! hahahahaahaaaa

Here i put some pictures : eNjoice!!

OKES! sekian.....

wordless WedNesdaY.. bla bla bla

Assalamualaikum !!

Have u ever heard bout "Family Outing?" the variety show yang suatu ketika dulu pernah
glamor kejap. Well, honestly aku betol-betol tak tahu kenape aku boleh LOIKE habis-habisan
this show. Then 1 day, i figured it out !! YES .... i have my answer~
  Because i felt alone!
  I love family outing coz they showed me something
  that i can feel.. Can't touch, but still can feel !
  I do have my grandma n grandpa beside me..
  But..not having our own family is different.. TOTALLy!
  Yeah, i knew ramai jew kat luar sana yang takde family.
  Aku rase cam aku ni senasib ajo ngan dOrang.
  I felt cam LEFT behind jauuuhhh sangat2.

But...when i m watching this show, it make me tersenyum sesorang and relax! they became so like family.
Ini lah ujian dan dugaan yang maha Esa kepada hambanya iaitu aku~ Yeah, aku redha.. tapi, kadang2 susah nak menutupi wajah sedih aku ni..terutama time2 nak exam!

I m so bernasib baik coz still ade grandma n grandpa! I lobe them....
But still.....I want to have father mother sibling with me. OMG! its quite suffocated bile talk bout mende2 ni. Everyone have their own mother coming while dorang sakit or penat.
Everyone sharing their problems with their father.
N Everyone have something to share or story with their sibling.

Benar seperti kata seorang penulis NOveL :
     Hidup ini tidak semuanya indaH!

N akan datang plak aku terlibat dengan program keluarga angkat.
Satu hal yang aku kurang boleh buat masa program ni....
calling "MOM or DAD" i mean in Malay punyer bahasa lah~
Still thinking what should i call them??
Mak cik and pak cik??
Aunt and uncle??
OR
silent.........#$%^&
hahahaaaa.....should i???? (how dare!)

How i m gonna tell them that i cannot call them using those word.
Hard like batu sungai tau~
It just like you humban diri you dalam periuk panas tatkala you use that words.
MOM & DAD angkat... sO sorry.

But... I m trying derrr~
We will see.. jenk! jenk! jenk!

i need to take a deep rest now. N tomorrow got class tau...
K,gud niteeee~